So it's been a week since I last did a blog entry. There has been a reason for that. For some time now I have been in this somewhat tortured state of mind. Lets just say there is much going on in my head. Running has been forever for me my salvation. When feeling bad I could always depend on a good run to knock me out of it and back into a great frame of mind. That has not been the case anymore for sometime now. I even feel like now when I am feeling bad I just pull away from running ? Do not get me wrong at times it still gets me going, and I still LOVE getting out there with people. It just is not the for sure cure all it once was for me. I do not know why that is, but I know that with time I will come around. There is much I need to get straight with and I am sure that will help.
I have been getting in some runs and all during this time. After some easy runs for a few days I had a great 2 hour run Sunday with Sonya and Paul. Nick joined us for some of it as well. I love running with those guys. I did not run Monday but had a pretty good run at the dome on Tuesday. I got in 10 miles in all. I just put on my ipod and took it one 600 meter lap at a time. I ran a bit with friends Jenna Boren and Dave Tappe at the end of the run. Great people! Jenna is looking great. She is training for this coming April's women's Olympic marathon trials. When I was done I saw I ran 10 miles in 1:07 which was under 7 min pace. It had been some time since I had run that pace for that long. Like before I had surgery. Wednesday was also a non running day. I just could not get myself out there.
So that brings me to the question why do I run ? Well I run because I love the feeling of being free outside. I love the feeling of sharing stories with my wife and friends. I love the self adventure side. Seeing how I can challenge myself both mentally and physically. I love the competition side of the races. I guess I just love to run !!! It is a love that will never die in me. It shows me a blueprint for how to live my life. To set challenges, to work hard, to understand that there will be setbacks but you will always rise up. I look forward to the coming weeks and months of training as I get ready for the Leadville trail 100. I know with my friends and loving wife I will get there. I am very luck to have her ! I LOVE RUNNING !!!